3 words 2 people 1 meaning

“i love you”
The simple sentence above maybe is the most wanted to be heard sentence of the year, maybe of the century, maybe of the forever endless world of love.
However, in some particular circumstances, those are the most hurtful words. People trying to be natural and cosidered it as a common sentence to end up a conversation, hiding all the secret of it inside each of the capital. And sending it out frequently makes it looks like a hopelessly action trying to craving for an answer
Consequently, the more it happens, the more hurts it would bring to both of the sender and the receiver.
Sometime, all we need is a sudden boldness, pushing ourselves to releash all the hurts and fellings that barried in the secret chamber of our hearts. At that wonderful momment, all of the passion and emotion will be locked down to just one sentence
“i love you”

_Oi!!Jong Kook ahh
_Who the hell do you think you are Oi-ing to you brat?!!!
_ehh! Sorry hyung! i’m just finish my work at the studio, wanna come over to my house? We can have some drinks
_Will Jong Ki be there too?
_Yeah! Of course, why wouldn’t him?
_Great! What time can i come
_Anytime, I’m free the whole night.
Oh and do you want to eat anything, i’m gonna grab them on my way home
_thanks but i’ve already eaten, maybe next time kay? Anw, love you
_love you too hyung
…
What was he thinking while he was typing down those words? Did he think about me? About us? About my reaction when i read that message? Did he?
Somehow, he always ask about Jong Ki when i ask him out, and Jong Ki does the same, every time i face him, he would have asked something like
“was Jong Kook hyung slept over at your house last night?” or “Did you guys go out together yesterday?” it wouldn’t be so weird if i assumed that those two are hooking up right?
Does he even know that my heart is pounding fast every time we see each other, talk to each other, or even reading his text makes me feel like i can happily live the whole week without complaining about the amount of works and how exhasted it is. I just need him to help me get pass this boring life of mine, wrap around me with the warmness of his heart
I’m dying day by day for 2 years, wondering how does he feel about me? It destroying me bit by bit from the inside and i just can’t focus to anything else when i think about him and Jong Ki… Sometime i just want to ask him to make things clear right away but i don’t think that i can suffer the answer if this is real. And what if it would destroy the friendship that i have cherished for the whole 2 years when he figure it out the truth that
I love him

“i love you”
If you think that those words just suddenly came out of my mind with no secound thought about it, well, is a lie. In fact, i was affraid of the aftermath of it
The first time I decided to do that, my whole body shivered while i was wondering whether i should press the send button or not eventhough it just right below my thumb. I don’t know what will Kwang Soo think of me. Will he be degust? Shock? Or maybe he doesn’t even notice it and just assume it as a common interaction between “friends” – a so-called relationship that we stick to each other. However i still think that those words are a little too much for the kind of bro’s intimate that we are suppose to have.
2 years ago he came to my life out of nowhere, people have said “love comes in an unexpected way”. Just by the time i needed someone to be there beside me, i realized that i have him. The tall skinny boy who needs protection, my protection
But i still wonder, why him, how could a silly boy with a stupid moustache like him could steal away my soul so suddenly like that? Don’t even mention the temptation i always feel when he’s around, a single words of him can easily make me melt all the way down.
_hyung?
_hmm?
_ i’m sorry for being a little brutal out there. Have your legs feel any better
_it’s fine, don’t mention it
_ Hyung…
That’s why i always have Jong Ki, his appearance can help me hold back the lust that trying hard to break out of the friendzone whenever Kwang Soo and i are alone. I once told Jong Ki about my circumstances and suprisingly, he got it, he supported me to follow the one my heart has chosen
And i choose him, Kwang Soo, I have sworn to myself that i will protect him forever, i will stand by him no matter what, in high or low
Even if the whole world turn their back to him. I will be here waitting for him with the deepest words are eatting away at my heart everyday
I love him